Its okay to feel

What the hell is Loneliness?  Wikipedia first paragraph -  Loneliness  is an unpleasant  emotional   response to perceived  isolation . Loneliness is also described as  social pain —a psychological mechanism which motivates individuals to seek social connections. It is often associated with an unwanted lack of connection and intimacy. Loneliness overlaps and yet is distinct from  solitude . Solitude is simply the state of being apart from others, not everyone who experiences solitude feels lonely. As a subjective emotion, loneliness can be felt even when surrounded by other people; one who feels lonely, is lonely. The causes of loneliness are varied. They include social, mental, emotional, and environmental factors. Why does it hurt so much? Along with feeling like a burden that is head messing stuff.  The past few days I've gone from sleeping hours and hours in which I believe I needed, to last night hardly sleeping, my head unable to calm, ...

I don't really know where to start. I'm trying to get to the bottom of a few issues. Trying to fix my head, feelings, memories, thoughts, so thought I might try by getting some thoughts and feelings down while I'm feeling them. Anger.... I feel angry at the managers who didnt help when i asked for help. I feel angry at the people who I then had to go and work with when I was broken - seeing them carry on like they are all fine, moaning that it's another day in bastion, how much work they have, and so on. I had to do it on my own. For you all it's another day in Bastion a massive camp, you can breath, you can walk more than 1km in a circle, your working together not alone, your not trapped in a small camp, your not on the road every day or every other day, your management are there so if you have a problem you can see them rather than over the phone where you get fobbed off, they were there to fight your corner. I'm writing this and my chest is tight, my ...